Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Kinsey Grace Thompson July 28th, 2008

Two different friends sent me a link to a blog about a Mother who lost her daughter.
that is how I got the idea to start my own blog about my daughter....never would I have imagined that I would be in this position. I wanted to write this blog to talk to family and friends, to let them know what has happened with Taylor, Kinsey and myself.
Its easier to type the words than to speak them....this is the time in life when you can't seem to talk without crying. So I will type, and let those that don't know what has happened recently to our family know the details.....and this way I only have to type it once.
Taylor and I, as most of you know....were expecting a baby girl. On July 28th, 2008 at 7:15 in the morning my water broke....and then at 6:35 PM, our hearts broke. The beautiful red headed baby girl that was exactly what we had wished for, did not survive.
Our daughter, Kinsey Grace was born at 6:30 PM. Even though we wanted and loved her so much, she was not able to be with us the way we had planned. Kinsey was born, but never was able to take a breath. She never had a heartrate after they cut the cord. There are no words to explain how we felt and still feel.
I had a normal, basically uneventful pregnancy. Nothing that could have hinted that this would happen. Kinsey's death was a complete and utter shock to Taylor and I, and still at times it dosen't seem real.
In this blog I would like to tell you our story, although tonight I am tired and just doing good to start everything. There is so much to tell, and to share.... and I would like to also have this place to ask for help from all of you for our future. To try again, and to have your prayers and support with us. Kinsey is in the best place that there is....with Our Father in Heaven, I have to take comfort in that because that is the only way I have been able to survive this past 4 weeks. I know without a doubt that the daughter Taylor and I created is now our Guardian Angel in Heaven, and looking over me even as I type. She would want a sister or brother, and God willing with the help a great Doctor and Nurse Practioner she will have that.
I will start back as soon as I am able, we have so much going on in our lives right now.....I will tell you about it all in time. For now, your prayers are needed and appreciated.

I want to leave this post by posting the lyrics to a song that has meant so much to me the last few weeks, its also in the playlist here on the blog.
This song was introduced to me by a friend at work that has had to deal with a similar situation. I thank her for that, and for her friendship when I need it most. Thanks Julie.
Its Glory Baby by Watermark, we actually played it at Kinsey's services and I wanted to share it with you.

Glory Baby....by Watermark
Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…
Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s aday when we will hold you We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do
Sweet little babies, it’s hard tounderstand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…
BRIDGE: I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabiesand what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…
all you’ll ever know…

Goodnight to you all, and Goodnight Kinsey.

P.S. There is a comment section here on the blog...I invite you all to leave a comment. The first comment left here is from Taylor, I think its fitting that Kinsey's Daddy was the first to leave a message.
Just click on the word "comments" at the bottom of the post. Its small and you really don't notice it, but I would love any comments you may have.
You can also read any comments that have been left by other people.


s2krn said...

I hope this helps us through this time when we have more questions than answers. Everything happens for a reason, but we may never know what that reason is. Kim's mom, my mom, is holding Kinsey right now and listening to her laugh. We couln't ask for a better person to take care of our daughter until we can see her again. I love you Kinsey.... I love you Mona.... Take care of our daughter; we miss you both!

Sawhn said...

You and your family have our thoughts and prayers. This is so hard to understand, to believe. Just know that we are here for you.
Michelle and Shawn

Anonymous said...

hey guys, I love that you have done this for Kinsey. I see the pain and anguish everyday in kristi and taylor . That you are two of the most beautiful people I know and that the world is a better place because you are here. I have no doubt that Kinsey would have had the best parts of both of you, what a joy and blessing she would have been to watch grow up!!! I have seen the anguish and grief on your faces and pray daily that God will ease your heartache. Taylor and Kristi, I love you both, like a fat kid loves cake.
ps: if you get a chance listen to the song "hope now" by
Addison Road. I think of you both every time I hear it.

Karen Morris said...

Kristi and Taylor - We've prayed for you and continue to pray for comfort and healing. We love you so much and really don't have the right words to say right now, but here are some lyrics to the chorus of a Natalie Grant song I like entitled "Held":

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

Karen, Jeff, and family

Darrell Perry said...

It is so great hearing from you. We all love you and your family.I wish all of Gods blessings be given onto you.

Anonymous said...

Kristi and Taylor I have been praying for you both. I can not fatham being in your shoes. But there is one thing I know and it is Jeremiah 28V11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope".
There is Nothing that GOD can not do. And I believe that. Know that I love yall and I KNOW with out a doubt that my mother in heaven is giving Kinsey the "Family" jube-
jube-jube on her little cheeks as she did to you when you were born!.
Love ya and God will bless!
Angie Bessonette (Cousin)

marlene said...

Hi, Kristi. I wish I had something great to say that would help you in some special way. I was at church when I heard you were about to have Kinsey. I was telling everybody I hoped she had red hair and she did! Beautiful precious baby. Then within an hour I had heard what had happened. I feel overwhelmed everytime I think about you and Taylor and what you must be going through. I love you and miss you and wish you were closer.I think about ya'll all the time....Marlene (I love the pictures)

Anonymous said...

I love her name.......You were there when my grace was born and I wish I could be there to help you with the passing of yours. My heart hurts for you and I will think and pray for you daily. She was beautiful. I will tell my Grace to say extra prayers. She seems to have a special connection with Him that we can't explain. Love to you all.......jenny

Angela said...

My heart breaks for you! I had no idea, and I will begin immediately lifting you and your family up in prayer! You may have seen this site before, but you may want to visit another site that has inspired me with the loss of a child
Love you,

Anonymous said...

I'll be praying for yall, Kristi.

Ben Hardy

Anonymous said...

I love that you started this blog.I love it for you, and for the rest of us who care so much for you and Taylor. I want so desperately to do something to make all the pain go away for you guys. In reality I know I cannot even begin to ease your sorrow. I want you to know I love you both dearly and pray for you daily.

Jenn E

donnacloud said...

I can't find the words to say right now but just know that y'all are in our thoughts and prayers. God will help you through all of this. If there is anything y'all need let us know. Take care.

Mike & Donna

Carrie Gray said...

Kristi and Taylor, my heart breaks for you. A day hasn't passed I haven't prayed for your family. Please know you haven't left my thoughts. I can't imagine how hard it must be to speak or even type as you stated Kristi, I'm thankful for this site. Kinsey is a beautiful angel and I love her red hair. The song is perfect.

Ryan said...

Taylor & Bizkit -

I love you guys and Emily and I pray for you all the time. Im glad that this is a great way for yall to move through this difficult time. Taylor - Im so sorry for your loss of your "real mom" as Ms Mona was a huge part of youor life. I love you bro.

Pass the bizkit - Greening

your neighbor said...

Hi, sweet neighbors. wow! As I sit here and look at the pics of your precious baby girl, my tears are falling to the ground. Please know a day doesn't go by that I don't hurt for you guys and pray often for you. I'm asking God to fill that terrible hole in your hearts with His mercy, grace and more babies than you guys know what to do with! I'm so thankful He has sent many wonderful friends your way to help minister to you. it does seem almost unreal to have so much happen to one couple in such a short time! I am so thankful you cling to Christ in these times or it would be almost impossible to hang in there. Please know I am just right up the hill if I can do anything for you guys...meals, eggs, milk...to scream at someone, whatever! I have a hole in my heart for you guys and will continue to lift you up to our Heavenly Father who heals the broken hearted. Thanks for inviting me into your lives through this blog. Your neighbor, Shannon Earls

Anonymous said...

Kristi and Taylor, I am so sorry for your loss. Although there are no words that ease the pain. Just know that you are loved and everyone is praying for you. You are constantly in my prayers, and I hope that each day becomes easier to bear. You are facing trials right now, like Job, but you will be blessed. I have a feeling in Heaven there is nonstop singing over the beautiful red head. Love Trish Ridgell

Anonymous said...

I have started this note to you several times, yet I cannot string together my heartfelt sympathy. I do want you to know that we have been praying for you and your whole family since we first heard the news. We will continue to lift you and your husband up to the Lord, knowing your hearts still ache. Please know I am available if you need anything at all. With all my heart, Rebekah Fortenberry Worley

Bobby Ross said...

I am so very sorry about your loss. Thank you for sharing your grief with me and for keeping me in as part of your circle. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Bobby Ross

Anonymous said...

Kristi & Taylor, I have wanted to let you know how happy you made us when you told us about our grandbaby being born. It was truly the happiest day of my life when you told us. You know how much we have wanted one. The night our Kinsey Grace was born was ten times the best. When we lost our sweet red-hair little angel our hearts were broken. I will never forget seeing you hold our precious baby girl. She was truly the most beautiful litle baby ever. I'll will always remember holding her and seeing my baby girl in her. She looked just like her mom. I pray every day that God will bless you two with another sweet baby . I pray that I can do whatever yall need me to do that will help heal your hearts and make this easier to bear. I love you two with all my heart and just know that dad and I are here for anything you need. Love, mama and daddy

Darlene said...

Just wanted you to know that I have thought about you non-stop since this happened. I have been praying for you and your family. I love your page and I am glad you are able to write about Kinsey. I have wanted to call, but did not have your number. I hope you know that you mean ALOT to me and I love you lots!! I cannot think of anything more to say other than GOD loves you too and is always by your side. I will continue to pray for you and be here for you. Love you, Darlene Granger Stewart

Jenn E said...

Thank you for writing about Kinsey and sharing all of the things you and Taylor have gone thru. I think of you and Taylor and Kinsey everyday, I look at her picture everyday. If I do these things, I know you do them 100 times more. You are a wonderful mama, Taylor is a wonderful dad. Kinsey could not have had parents any better.
I feel so blessed to be able to call you a friend. I love you guys.

Just want you to know everyone in PI sends their love and ask about you daily!! They all oooed and ahhhed over your beautiful pictures!

Anonymous said...

I think this is a great outlet for you to help in dealing with your pain. I'm glad to see you taking on a positive approach and moving on through this. I have no way to make you feel any better about what has happened but know you are not alone. We all love you both and think of you often. I know that you will have a beautiful child soon and hopefully be able to feel some peace. It's all so hard to believe sometimes... even for me. I cannot imagine how you both feel. Call us if you need anything...anytime. Ronnie and Kim

Kristen said...

Kristi - We are thinking of yall. I have not known what to write to you. I have enjoyed seeing the photographs on your blog and I check it daily. Our prayers are with you. Todd and Kristen Kern

silvery_snow86 said...

I'm sincerely sorry for your loss. No words can explain the pain you are feeling. I have no perfect words to help you and your hubby feel better, but know that I'm praying for you and your family. Good luck to the future and Kinsey, sweetie, remember to look over your mommy and daddy.

schex_noble said...

I have enjoyed being able to read your blog and want to thank you for allowing me to meet your sweet family. I pray for your continued faith, strength and healing.

Alicia Schexnayder Noble

Anonymous said...

Kristi and Taylor,
I just found out today about your loss and I am so sorry for you. I cannot imagine losing a child, especially on the day of her birth. I will keep you in my prayers and hopefully one day when the time is right God will answer your prayers with another child; not to take Kinsey's place, but to mend a place in your hearts. I was blessed to have a baby girl only a few weeks after your tragedy, and my heart breaks for you. I hope in some way that in time your hurt will ease, because I know it will never go away. Keep strong in your faith.