Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Grayson's Update for 6/8/09

We had our latest visit to see our Doctor yesterday.
Grayson still looks okay on the ultrasound. He shows no signs of heart failure, and moves around a good bit. He is up to 4 lbs and 4 oz.

The situation we are in now is with me, not him. I have had a few small contractions, nothing regular though. But also my cervix has started thinning as shown by the ultrasound. That puts me not being able to do much anymore. Hopefully I have not dilated.

I will still be going to work, but only because I am not on my feet all the time anymore. My new job is at a desk, so its alot better on me. Plus it is at the hospital where we will deliver, so there is no better place to be.

It does make us very nervous and scared that I may not make it to my induction time at 38 weeks. I just want Grayson to have the best chance he can have....and that means trying to hold him in a while longer.
I want to have him keep growing and get a little bigger and stronger.

So this is where we are, basically not knowing when Grayson will be ready to make his entry. Its all up to him, God and my cervix.
Please pray that I can hold im in for a few more weeks, and that he will get stronger.
Please continue to pray that we can bring him home. Even for a little while. and that he will be comfortable.

Thank you to all of you for your thoughts and prayers. We still need them evern more now than ever. We do know that Grayson has a Guadian Angel all his own. A little redheaded one named Kinsey, and I know she is with us all now.

God bless...
Love,
Kristi

26 comments:

caitsmom said...

Sending good thoughts and prayers. Hope all goes well and you hold your precious baby in your arms.

Jennifer said...

I have been following you for a while now. When you posted about Grayson a few weeks ago I just didn't know what to say. I find myself grieving for you and your husband. I know that Timothy was one of the biggest blessings of my life, and I know that Grayson will be for you as well.

Since I have only lost one child I can't even pretend to know how you must be doing right now. I will be praying for little Grayson to be born full of life and be able to come home and spend time with you. I have seen it happen...check out little Lily...

http://iseeloveblog.blogspot.com/

Praying...

Bethany said...

I saw your post on Angie's site. I just had to come over and tell you how sorry I am for your loss. She is beautiful. I will pray for you as you wait the birth of your son. I will pray for time and beautiful memories.

There just aren't words to say what my heart is feeling for you. I hope my prayers will be enough.

Jenn said...

Kristi-
I have been checking your blog consistently since November when you posted the birthday weekend stuff. I was so excited to when I saw that you had updated, but my heart ached for you and your husband when I read the news about sweet Grayson. I will keep your family in my prayers.

Paige said...

Came over from Kelly's Korner blog! Just wanted you to know that you and your family are being bathed in prayer tonight.

May God give you peace and rest during these next few days.

Bear Girl said...

I saw the prayer request at Kelly's Korner and found myself sobbing reading your blog. All I could think was "thank goodness you know have Jesus". I am praying and will continue to pray. Miracles do happen and I will pray for that. If that is not the Lord's will then I pray the Lord will carry you both through this and you will feel His love and presence constantly. Please know you are loved by your friend in Christ from Indiana.

Genah
thebeargirl@gmail.com

camhud said...

your family is in my thoughts and prayers tonight, may you be blessed and comforted through this time.

Melissa said...

My heart aches for you and your family. Please know that you are in our prayers.

Stacy said...

I saw a prayer request for you and your family on Kelly's Korner and just finished reading your blog from start to finish with a very heavy heart.

I don't know you, but can tell you my heart aches for you and for the sadness you've had to endure. I'm truly sorry for the loss of your daughter, Kinsey. I will pray without ceasing for you, Taylor and Grayson. I will pray that you will feel God's love and mercy as you draw close to your delivery and I will pray that you will have precious time with Grayson once he is born, time that you will treasure forever.

May God Bless you and your sweet baby Grayson.

annalee said...

just said a prayer for your family and your precious, precious grayson.

AnnMarie & Nick said...

Thinking and praying for your entire family.

Jodi Lansink said...

I wil be having a little girl a week after you, who has Anencephaly-----I feel your pain right now......

mkv said...

I just found your blog and wanted you to know that we lost our own Kinsey and her brother, Ryan, at 23weeks a few years ago. I will be praying for you and your sweet Grayson. xoxo

Kristy said...

My heart is so heavy having read what you've been through. I am praying for the delivery and little Grayson. I don't know if you are a Christian or not, but I know that God loves you dearly and will help you through this if you ask. My prayers are with you.

Tammy518 said...

I just found your blog today, via Kelly's Korner. I'm so sorry you lost your precious little girl. She's so beautiful! I hope that you get at least some time with your baby boy. I just can't imagine...

Hugs and prayers to you, your hubby and your family.

Mindy said...

Praying ever so hard for you, your baby and your family.

Anonymous said...

I just found your blog tonight.
I am praying for all of you.
-Molly from Pittsburgh

Rachaellh said...

I felt compelled to write and say how sorry I am that you lost your beautiful daughter and now face uncertainty with Grayson. I lost my oldest daughter 3 years ago May 31st during birth. I am so sorry that you have had to endure so much. I pray that Grayson will come into this world full of life and that you will have time with him on this earth.

The 3 of you will be in my prayers. I pray that God will renew your strength every day. I pray that God will allow Grayson to grow and thrive. I pray that God will wrap you in His love.

Kylee said...

Praying for you. Words escape me, but please know that you are being lifted up in prayer. May the Lord wrap his arms around you.

Rebecca said...

Just came over from Kelly's Korner, and read from start to finish.

My heart aches for you and I am praying for you all.

Kelsey said...

God is receiving multiple prayers for your family! Although we have never meet, being members of Christ's family means lifting up one another in prayer. Even when we do not know how to pray, the Holy Spirit does and prays for us. I have sent your story in an email for many more family and friends to lift you up in prayers. Praying for divine healing over your son and for your family.

Kate's Mommy said...

Kinsey is a beautiful baby. I found you through kellyskornerblog. Will be following and praying for sweet Grayson. God bless...sending prayers up now.

StampinShelly said...

Praying for you, your husband and sweet baby Grayson. May God give you peace and wisdom for the days ahead.

Erin said...

I came over from Kelly's Korner. I am praying for you. God is STILL the God of miracles--to this very day. He will be with you. I pray for peace and comfort and God's perfect will.

valerie said...

Kristi,
I read a prayer request for Grayson and your family on Kelly's Korner.
I honestly cannot imagine going through what all you and your husband have. It breaks my heart.
You are in my prayers! I pray you feel the heartfelt prayers of so many out there and as difficult as everything is at this time that you will have an unexplainable peace.
God bless you!
Love,
Valerie (Oklahoma)

Rene said...

Praying for your family and the heartache you are going through. May God give you the strength to face the days ahead.