I don't know what to say really, except that I am humbled by all of the comments and prayers that are being sent our way.
I had no idea about Kelly, or her prayer blog... but I am glad that I am a part of it.
Grayson's latest update is that as of last week he is up to 4lbs and 11oz. He may hit 5lbs before birth! I am done with work at this point, and I have to say I am glad... Even though we won't make any money while we are off having Grayson. I'm just tired. It's not something we can help, Taylor and I both started new jobs in March... so we don't have any medical or personal leave built up this time. We are lucky enough to both be nurses though, and to have been able to save a little in advance. We know that we will be okay though, and that God will provide for what we need.
We both have been lucky enough though to have new jobs, where the people are great and understanding of what we are having to face. Not to say that the people at our old jobs aren't great to... let me make sure and say that!
We have family coming here starting tomorrow to help out, and to be here to meet Grayson. If all goes as "planned", I will be able to make it through the holiday weekend and go into the hospital Monday night to start being induced.
The closer it gets, I have so many mixed emotions. Nervous, excitement, fear...just to mention a few. I just pray for peace and courage for myself and my husband, so we can be there for Grayson like we should. We just want him to survive delivery and be as healthy he can be at birth.
Of course we don't know what will happen, and that's one of the hardest parts of all this. Will Grayson survive delivery? Will he be able to breathe on his own after he is born? Will he be able to make it through the day...the night, the next day? Will we be able to bring him home?
So many questions... so many fears.
I just don't want to have to leave the hospital without our baby again. To bring him home would be such a blessing... that is one of my biggest prayers.
I know that God will be with us, and Kinsey will be watching over us as well.
Lord just please be with us and give us the strength and courage and peace to be able to get through this...and be the strongest parents for Grayson that we can be.
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