Thursday, July 16, 2009

Running out of time

We are feverishly trying to get everything done that we have invisioned for Gray Man's celebration. Today involved getting all the music together, sorting through over a thousand pictures, printing and picking up pictures at Walgreens, working on the big surprise, and dressing Little Man for his last party.

Amazingly we received a song Kristi really wanted for Saturday just as we were leaving to bring all the music to the funeral home. We burned the CD really quick and headed out the door. Now we have "I Will Carry You" as the prelude for his celebration. Thank you Angie!

Something I haven't thought much about, but will be very apparent tomorrow is how poorly I've been eating. Family and friends haven been supplying all our meals. Of course there are piles of cookies and cakes sitting in the kitchen. I'm pretty sure I have Coke and tea running through my veins. So much for my one Diet Dr. Pepper a day... that flew out the window on 7-7-09. Once the dust settles I'll get back on track. Until then I may have to use the old rubber band on the pants button trick

The mystery monkey at Kinsey's grave remains a mystery. There are so many wonderful people who have touched our lives and so many that have been touched by Gray Man's story. Sometimes things are better left a mystery; one of the times you can make up your own story or imagine what far off place he came from. Whoever you are, thank you.

25 comments:

Anonymous said...

MY HEART BREAKS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!!I WILL CONTINUE TO KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS DURING THIS DIFFCULT TIME!!!GOD BLESS YOU AND GOD SPEED GRAY MAN!!!
WITH LOVE FROM MONTGOMERY ALABAMA,JESSICA TAYLOR

Broken said...

Wishing I could be there to celebrate Gray Man's life with you all. Even though you don't know me, God knows us all, and we're praying so hard for you and your family.

The Little Ones said...

Dont know your family..found your blog through another blog. Just wanted to let you know you are in my prayers. I can not imagine what you feel like but I know that God will give you the peace that you will need to get through this time. Remain strong in your faith and trust God.

Mindy said...

Lifting you guys up in prayer.

Mandy Quinn said...

Our prayers are with you and your family.

Heather said...

My prayers continue to be with you guys.

mrosev14 said...

I am praying for you guys. It really sounds like his celebration is really coming together. I can totally relate to eating while being numb...not a good idea. No worries though, like when you said when the dust settles everything will fall back into place.

Renita McDaniel said...

My heart is so heavy for you both, and both sets of your families during these difficult days ahead. You both are such wonderful people and I know Gray Man's celebration will be amazing but so hard to go through.I just wanted to let you know that we all have you in our prayer's and we know God continues to hold you both in his arms. With continued love and support. Renita

Kristi J said...

It is truly touching to hear about the monkey at Kinsey's grave for Grayson. What a kindhearted person. I wish I was closer to attend the celebration for Gray's life with you, but please know you are in my daily prayers and your sweet family has greatly touched my heart. I can't begin to imagine how difficult your days are, but I hope and pray you feel lifted up by all of us that love and adore you, even though we have never met.

Graves said...

You are a great mother! I lost my child to T18 also and just wanted to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts.

Emma said...

What an amazing little guy Grayson is. He has touched more people in his few days on earth than some people touch in decades on this earth. Monkey hugs to you all.

Amy, queen of the world. said...

I've been wanting to comment for the past few days, since Gray Man went to be with his sister. I don't ever know what to say in sad situations, but I just wanted to tell you that I'm very sorry for your loss. You're in my prayers. God bless you.

Sheila said...

I read about little Grayson's passing in the paper tonight. Even though I do not know you, my heart breaks for you, for as a parent I could only imagine the loss you must feel and the sadness in your hearts. As I continued to read I found the web address and immediately went to the blog site. Only then did I realize the multitude of loss you both have endured over the past year. I have a son that is handicapped. He is now 30 years old and I never thought I would be so blessed to have him this long. He became ill at 5 1/2 months of age and many times we came close to loosing him. Over the years many people have ask me, how do you do what you do? I always tell them, as a parent you have no choice, it comes naturally and God gives you the strength to get through every day. You have not had a choice as the decisions are made by our maker. We as his children only do what he expects of us and what any parent would do in our child's times of need. I do not understand the depth of your loss, no one does, I can say that it seems so unfair and we wonder why? Only God has those answers but I know without a doubt that God doesn't make wrong decisions and I know in my heart that Grayson and Kinsey are safe in his loving arms. They will never know sin much like my son and the one thing I have always found comfort in, is knowing that my son will someday return back to his Heavenly Father just as your daughter and son have done, and even through all the heartache, what a wonderful blessing that we have as parents, to know that our children will forever and for all eternity be with Jesus. My heart aches for you, I pray that God will continue to give you both the courage and strentgh to carry on. I want you both to know that you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers daily and please know that for everything there is a purpose and for everything there is a time. You are both wonderful parents and Kinsey and little Gray Man will forever be blessed by your love. They are very fortunate to have been blessed by you both. Even though I do not know either of you on a personal level, we are all brothers and sisters through Christ and I have a love for you both that I will always carry in my heart. Dear God, rock Kinsey and Grayson gently in your loving arms tonight and give comfort with those same loving arms to Mom and Dad tomorrow and the days to come. Thank you God for allowing us to share in the lives of Kinsey and Grayson and bless their parents for sharing their lives with us.
Love and prayers for you both.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you both. What a beautiful baby boy you have!!

God Bless!
Tori
PA

Sarah Bussey said...

Kristi & Taylor,
You guys don't know us but we lost our daughter Mamie on June 25, 2009. We have made it through 3 weeks with the support and prayers from all of our friends and people we don't even know. I can say I have never felt this close to God ever in my life till now. Crystal is a good friend of mine and she took tons of pictures of Mamie for us. I talked to her yesterday and she told me I needed to check out your blog. I am just so heart broken to read what you and Taylor have been through. We will be praying for you everyday. Someone left me a quote today that I wanted to share. "earth hath no sorrow that heaven cannot heal".

Anonymous said...

May God hold you in his hand as you say goodbye to your son! May your sadness and tears be absorbed by His love. I will hold you in my prayers. Regards, Dominique Botha, Pretoria, South Africa.

Becky said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my only child at 16 months after he battled cancer for 14 of those months. My heart and prayers go out to you both. I am inspired and encouraged by your strength. Take care of each other. Our church had a special prayer for your family Sunday. You will continue to be in my prayers.

Sharon said...

You're so right about not "having" to know "who" left the sweet blessings at the cemetary. I truly believe that God uses human hands to serve as HIS angels on earth when he needs them...I'm so glad that the "mystery person" listened to God's heart and call and blessed your family by their kindness. Again, please know how very much your beautiful children have been used to bring so many so close to our Father in Heaven this week. Just think of all the prayers that have been offered on your behalf recently...prayers uttered by so many of so many different locations, faiths, ages, backgrounds, circumstances - I hope that you can feel the love that is being sent your way - please know that our prayers won't end with this part of your journey - you'll STAY in our thoughts and prayers. In those horrible days to come - pause for a sec and just try to feel the virtual hugs being sent your way...so many of us who don't even know you, will surely be sending them them your way. Giggle for Jesus little Monkey Man - - - With love from Florida -

Anonymous said...

Kristi and Taylor, I have been following Little Man's progress with both your texts and blog. Grayson really lived the perfect life, he only knew unconditional love from the both of you and then got to go home. I remain assured that both he and Kinsey will be watching over you two and preparing one day to be reunited with you. I learned so much caring for you this pregnancy. I have told you before but I will tell you again, you are my hero! You have carried your cross not once but twice, you have fallen and gotten up both times and have smiled and been a light to others despite all you have gone through. Your courage throughout this process has been an example a faith and hope like I have never before witnessed. Your delivery will be etched in my memory for ever. When Grayson was looking at us when he was delivering, he brought a smile to all of our faces. I also will remember forever the first baptism I have ever performed and was honored that you asked me to do it. After coaching from Monsgr Malone, I actually made it through it without crying but I do think my voice cracked once or twice. When I was talking with him, I told him that I had never done one before. He profoundly remarked that maybe I was called to be an OB just for that very moment. That thought has been with me repeatedly this past week. Thanks for the education and priviledge of getting to be there with the both of you during that special time. I wish I could be down there for his funeral to celebrate his wonderful life. I will mourn privately up here and pray for your recovery. If I can lighten the load of your cross at all you know how to get ahold of me. Mother Theresa said that when you take of the sick and care for them in their hour of need, you touch the face of God. I know you have done that and I thank for letting me do it. Paul Wendel

our family said...

Grayson received more love in his five days then most people get in a long life. As I am reading your blog tears are streaming down my face. I am so blessed to hold my own sweet miracle baby in my arms. You are both wonderful parents and I pray that when you both are ready God will give you the strength and courage to be blessed with a baby to keep here on earth. Praying that God continues to use GRayson and Kinsey's life story to lead others to Him.
Hugs and Prayers
Rachel in PA

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss! May God bless you through this painful time. *Prayers from Huntsville, Alabama

Anonymous said...

My heart goes out to you both as you go through this. As the busy times conclude and you have those first overwhelming moments of quiet alone that sometimes seem just too much to bear, know that you're not alone. You have two remarkable angles sitting next to you giving you hugs and a heavenly father that will hold you in his hands always. You also have hundreds of people lifting you up in prayer daily. I wish we could give you hugs of comfort in person, but our words will have to do. Monkey hugs from Dallas,
Laurie Garrett

Anonymous said...

You guys are being thought of often and prayed for...especial tonight and tomorrow. Wish we could be there to show you support--so far away makes it difficult. We will be with you and Taylor in spirit and prayer.

Donna (ANGELS Call Center)

Christen Farmer said...

Words cannot express my sympathy. I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. I am glad that you got to spend some time with grayson and i know that God will see you through this. You are both wonderful people and i know that you will allow God to shine through your circumstances. Love and Prayers.

Anonymous said...

Your family is in my thoughts and prayers daily. I will continue to lift you up and will be checking in on ya'll from time to time to see how you are doing. So many things we simply do not understand, but God is good and he will carry ya'll through this.
Frances Day
Brookhaven, MS